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[ This is stupid.

Allen realizes it's stupid just a little too late. It seemed like such a good idea, right up until the point he's in front of Kanda, with a stupid little necklace made out of stupid little beads and strings and pieces of macaroni in his hands. He opens his mouth and it's only as he's trying to find the words that he realizes that he shouldn't be doing this. In what world is this not dumb? Especially for them. Maybe the weirdness of this camp has gotten to him, but Allen and Kanda are not this childish, surely. Well, apparently Allen is.

Ugh.

The campfire nearby means it'll be bedtime soon, so... maybe not all is lost? God, he's just an idiot sitting here with his mouth open now, though. Fuck. ]

...Er- Y... [ He moves his hand behind his back to hide the trinket. ] You don't usually... go to eat those gooey sandwiches, right? [ The S'mores. Those are mostly an American thing, though, so Allen is only vaguely aware of them. ] W-would it be alright if we spent some time together maybe... before you went to bed? Or, are you proper exhausted...? I know you usually clock out early...

[Kanda is completely oblivious to Allen's machinations, hi. He's just winding down for the night, unbothered and in his lane, thus his hair is down and he's combing it out in front of the cabin. So, yes, he might've been at least intending to start getting ready soon, but it's still a little too early for bedtime yet. He'd be a liar if he tried to claim he wasn't lingering near the cabin getting ready for bed early because he wants to avoid the bonfire crowd, though.

Allen is allowed. It's not so late that Allen can't come in, but there's a Silence spell over their cabin thanks to Faust thinking fast, so...]

It'll have to be at your cabin, not mine. Unless you wanted to walk through the woods or something.

...Er... [ Thinking about his cabin. Thinking about Kanda would absolutely hate it in there, actually- ] We could go for a walk in the woods. I don't think there's danger out there like there is in the Grove, anyway? So it should be fine.

[ "I just hate that we can't see each other." "I miss you." "It's dumb that we can't sleep where we want to." "I don't understand why this place is trying to put distance between us."

All things that sit on his tongue. All things that go unspoken. Anyway, going out into the woods means he can discard this dumb necklace in the bushes somewhere. ]

Sure.

[He wonders how far out into the woods he can make it in his Uniform Pyjamas™ before they get thanos snapped into shorts. Time to find out, he supposes, as he follows after Allen.

When they're far enough up the road and in the darkness, he reaches for Allen's hand in an attempt to hold it, vaguely aware that Allen is fidgeting with something but unsure what. Hold his hand idiot.]

[ It's funny. It's not the first time (nor the last if Allen has anything to say about it) that they've held hands, but Allen is still surprised to feel Kanda trying for it. He shouldn't be, realistically, because Kanda has been more openly affectionate with Allen since the two of them have started dating. Which is still such a wild thing for Allen to wrap his head around.

He feels... stupid. Stupid for being so startled by it, when it's something he craves desperately. His love language is touch, after all. So he should be happy and not so dumbfounded when this happens. He doesn't even think to move the hand that the necklace is in, having it loosely hang between their hands as Allen stares at Kanda like he'd just created a star to put in the sky right in front of his eyes.

...?

He doesn't realize he's holding his breath until he lets it out finally. ] ...Yu? [ God, he didn't even have a plan for this beyond "I want to spend time with Kanda". ] I love you. You've been... okay here, right?

I could be better. I could be worse. [Middle of the road, really.] I hate most of my cabinmates, but luckily Faust had Ydalir put a silence spell on the cabin after the shitheads started keeping us all awake at night. The freak with the striped tattoos kept trying to praise my sword technique after I tried to cut him in half.

[He's recounting this like he's talking about the goddamn weather. Incredible truly.]

...I love you too. By the way. [Sorry he's bad at this.]

...? Oh... Aka... Aza... [ What the fuck was his name- ] A, something, I cannot remember for the life of me right now. I know who you mean. I can't stay around him for very long. Bloody sets off my cursed eye...

[ Huffs. Lily said to be nice to the demons here, so he is, but he wishes he wasn't flashbanged by souls whenever he wanted to be around them. ]

Do you think I should... wear an eyepatch, or do you think Lavi would tease me for 'trying to be like him'? [ Not that Lavi's been wearing the eyepatch while he's been here. Maybe he should ask about that...? ]

Hope you're not tired of me saying that yet. I know sometimes it feels like words lose meaning overtime, but I feel so compelled to let you know whenever I can. I do love you. So much, Yu.

Well, good fucking news. He isn't worth being around, so that should spare you.

[Yeah, he's also wondering about the eyepatch, although he knows some things about Lavi that the others don't at this point too. There's a debate in his mind on airing the tea, but then he thinks better of it — Lavi wouldn't do that to him — and so he bites his tongue. He'll just make a mental note to lock all of them in a room until they air their issues with each other.

So he shrugs to the eyepatch thing, and moves on. And also has that mental moment of "how the fuck did I end up playing this role, again".

God shit was so much easier when he didn't care. Or rather, was better at pretending he didn't.]

...I'm not tired of it. It flusters the hell out of me still, though.

That just convinces me to tell it to you more—

[ Allen goes to squeeze Kanda’s hand here, but pauses when he feels threads. Ah-

His hand wipes away a moment and he suddenly tosses the necklace nebulously out into the wooded area. It gets caught on a tree branch, but he doesn’t seem to care, just reaching back out to take Kanda’s hand again. ]

Sorry, love. As I was saying, you’re cute when you blush. And all the time, but especially then.

[Wow, that was... quick. Kanda raises an eyebrow, ignores that last part, and leans over to try seeing through the darkness what Allen tossed.]

What's that?

Ah… something I made during that… silly crafting thing that you do at the mess hall. [ Because Allen can’t not eat, so— ] I thought to myself “if I’m going to be forced to make something, it should be something useful”, so I wanted to…

Er. Anyway, I just hadn’t gotten the chance to throw it away yet. I’m proper rubbish at making things, I’ve realized. Remind me not to be a craftsman when I retire, haha~

[He's still leaning. Sorry Allen.]

I didn't think you would be. [KANDA,] There's a trash can outside the mess hall, though. What gives?

..................................

It was supposed to be a gift for you.

What the fuck, [he mutters, pacing over to where he saw Allen toss it,] I can't believe you're throwing my gift in the woods like that.

[DEEPLY sarcastic]

Wh- I just said it wasn't good?! Come on, dumbarse, where are you going???

To go get it? What else would I be doing?

[Ah, there it is. Looks like a necklace, he thinks?? He'll just pick that up thanks.]

Wh- I just said I was throwing it out?! Are those bloody ears just for show?

Yep. [Necklace gotten. He looks at it, sort of smirks because it's definitely an arts and crafts project, and puts it on.] Don't throw my gifts in the trash next time maybe.

["It's my friendship necklace back off" energy or whatever that Tumblr post is.]

It- What? No. Yu. Don't put that on, you'll look like a bigger idiot than you already are.

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